Short and Brief

Emo is Cool?

2011-05-16T13:15:00.006+08:00

The new way to be cool is to be emo.

Showing that you're emo shows that you have many things to worry about. Only mature and busy people have THAT many things to worry about right? Being emo increases the likelihood of your friends mentioning you to other friends, read plainly, it increases your popularity =D. In fact, being emo is a direct way for you to know that you are popular, becasue your friends will accompany you in an in-depth manner. It is no wonder why being emo is such a trend in youths, because it reflects popularity. Is that all?

The bad is stronger than the good (something widely understood in psychology). Deep inside, people's subconscious instinct do not want to mix with people who are negative. Yet, they want to show sympathy. Hence, your emo popularity probably lasts the first few rounds and subsequently, it pisses people off (crudely speaking). Next, being emo is unhealthy. Do you see people celebrate depression like the way they celebrate happiness? So are you putting 'popularity' in front of health?

Incidentally, there's a very great series recently aired on Channel U titled 'Secret Garden' 《秘密花园》. It addresses the social stigma tied to mental illnesses and show how we should re-think such biases. A key lesson I learnt is this:
“每个人都有精神病，只要不影响日常生活那就不是问题”
'everyone is mentally ill, as long as it doesn't affect your daily life it is not a problem'
So why should we exaggerate our problems, and not look at those, perhaps existing in greater proportion, positive aspects of our lives?

A final quote from the show:
“我们的心灵就像个秘密花园，种下好的种子就会开出美丽的花，种下坏的种子就会变得很扎乱。”
"Inside us is a secret graden, planting good seeds produces beautiful flowers, bad ones will turn the garden messy."

Being Cool

2011-04-06T01:04:00.005+08:00

Having the latest IT gadget and the chickiest hairstyle is not cool enough. The coolest way to live your life now is to make it busy.

You have to fill your daily life up with work, with enrichment lessons, with appointments and with 'other stuffs to do' that you only have time left to eat and sleep. In fact skipping meals and sleep deprivation is cool too! You need to be a superhuman who is Jack of all trades and master at everything. Most importantly, just do something and NEVER tell people you are free.

Why? Being busy tell people that you're a high-achiever, and that they should not interrupt that. In fact it's a pretty good excuse for being slack sometimes. People who are busy hence receive recognition by peers, by teachers and by their bosses. Who doesn't want recognition and be popular? Hence to become popular now, you HAVE to be busy. It's alright if you're dying, you might even be better off sick, all the more popular you become.

But what are you really risking? What are you really pursuing? Why not just free up more time to really enjoy a good movie, have a really nice afternoon tea, go for a nice, relaxing swim, bathe in the sun, have a picnic with your family, have a good, quality sleep. Ain't life better off this way?

Sleep debt is nature's debt. You'll one day have to repay it. Good night.

Watching Movies Through Different Lenses

2011-02-28T23:09:00.001+08:00

Lecturer ET shows us movies nearly every week for 10mins, and he'll always say, 'I respect all these directors and actors, they are able to bring out all the emotions so well...' So I adopted his 'emotional' lenses now whenever I watch movies, and it's true! Drawing on the example of Titanic, unarguably the best movie in the recent decades, you see the fear, sadness, desperation, relief of all the different people - it makes you think. Yes, good movies make you think.

Perhaps differently, through my own lenses, I understood a different aspect of Mr Bean's Holiday. Mr Bean is a very simple man, perhaps too simple for our time, but he shows how it is those simple things that make us most happy. Towards the end of the movie, he was so preoccupied by the fact that he saw the beach - his initial simple goal admist the going-ons of the world around him. If we get happiness from simple events like Mr Bean, wouldn't we have a happier life than feeling happy only when we achieve something great? Incidentally, we'd probably have had achieved much more along the way.

Frohes Neues Jahr

2011-01-04T19:56:00.001+08:00

My greatest wish for the new year is to achieve German B1(.5) Level. =D

《妻子的诱惑》

2010-12-07T00:52:00.004+08:00

在不知觉的情况下，我已经看《妻子的诱惑》这部扣人心弦的韩剧已有一年了，一共看了两遍。

看第一遍是断断续续，起初是被那紧凑的剧情给吸引了，再加上申爱丽那厚颜无耻一角与怜悯的具恩才默默的忍耐让人惊叹又感慨万分。

看第二遍时看得比较完整，也让我对这部剧作的剧组人员可说是敬佩不已。表面上的恶毒与复仇其实涵盖着很多人生中常遇到的抉择。狠毒的申爱丽愿望其实很简单，那就是要给唯一的孩子一个健全的家庭。虽然手段的确不对，但想想她小时候也是被抚养长大的，心中那渴望推动着她的心狠手辣，我们真的能怪她吗？恩才的复仇计划又反应了什么呢？很多时候我们都一再的忍耐，俗话“忍一时风平浪静，退一步海阔天空”，但有时你退得越多，别人就用更过分的手段伤害你，直到忍无可忍时，你会怎么做？

《妻子的诱惑》大结局也有值得我们学习的道理。筱希终于发觉她那么迫爱健佑其实是自私的，其实她只爱自己，要拥有她所想要拥有的，而她也发觉说其实当初她与健佑当兄妹时是最幸福的。这告诉了我们适可而止，知足常乐的意义。有时你要得更多，得到了并不代表你比没有时来的快乐。最后，在乔彬的葬礼上乔彬妈妈对恩才妈妈说了句：“当时你听说恩才死了也是那么的同步欲绝吗？这真是老天对我们的惩罚。”因此，我们真的需以一刻关怀的心对待别人，那么才能积德，当你碰到困难时也会有人为你伸出援手。

这真是我这生中看过最好的连续剧，在这里诚意推荐。

金玉良言

2010-11-11T22:35:00.004+08:00

During the last Geog of BO lecture, Prof Yeung stayed a while and talked to us. I am deeply heartened by what he said, "under the university system, there are ways to get a first class, but does it belong to you?" He was referring to people who work so hard for a first class, but are not happy doing their studies.

Whatever you do, you must enjoy it. Whatever you get, is your life.

Another motivating song lyric: 《专注》 by 增宝仪
出去是不曾走过的路口
和等待着被记载的香浓
打开了门外太冷的空气
会需要一个勇敢的笑容

有时候跌跌撞撞向前走
总是会发生难免的差错
来不及讲得太晚的对不起
会变成指出方向的星座

遇见了没有地图的迷宫
绕了一圈又回到了起点
就算是恐惧不只一点点
要稳住自己千万不能哭

Chinese is really a beautiful language. There is so much meaning in a word, making it so flexible - and interesting (and funny). Really miss those days when I could write better. Now they have all been synaptically pruned to focus on English.

Das Semester ist schon fast vorbei

2010-11-11T22:32:00.000+08:00

It's been my chillest semester yet, and my happiest.

Oh wells perhaps the horoscopes were right, 2010 won't be a good year for our family.

Moving on

2010-09-20T12:26:00.002+08:00

Recently have been thinking about my choices. But they have never been so close to my heart, although they haven't shown to be positive. So I've decided to stick with them.

To perk myself up, I listen to some motivating songs, and this came:
也曾风，也曾雨，也曾路过崎岖
也总是雨过天晴，挺心再继续
即使前方波涛汹涌，也别心灰意冷
信心让你我坚强，未来更灿烂

Youth Olympic Games

2010-08-22T13:56:00.006+08:00

On top of school, the one thing that really got me up and jumping this entire month is the Youth Olympic Games in Singapore. I was fortunate enough to be able to watch the Opening Ceremony Final Rehearsal. It was very moving to know that the world will be watching us, and get to know the life of a Singaporean. (There are five stars arising, out of the stormy seas...good depiction of SG and good encouragement for us to be positive in life)

When I watched the TV broadcast, I thought the Olympic Flame was very magical, like in a Harry Potter film. Of course, it was awesome when the Olympic flame ran past my house, and to follow the Games' action in places we're familiar with like Bishan, Toa Payoh, and NTU. And not forgetting a very nice theme song 'Everyone' - raise your hands for our generation, fly the flags of every nation...(and I got to see the singers live!)

In school I overheard some German exchange students speaking in German, and I felt very accomplished when I could understand parts of their conversation, and this motivates me to master the language, to be able to converse like them.

"Learning a language is not like learning a content subject where you memorise information. It exposes you to a new culture, and it changes your whole person."
- Frau Niemann (2010)

After Germany...

2010-07-16T19:48:00.006+08:00

After Germany, I was in a state of denial - after all how could I bear to leave such a relaxed lifestyle and be back here, facing everything that I don't wish to. But its never good to disconnect yourself from reality.

But yes its a trip of a lifetime. In benefitted me in 3 ways:
1: I've always thought life is stressful here, and I was resigned to believe that life's such, but now I know it isn't.
2: I love my identity as a Chinese. I love SG food.
3: I love German kids =D

I started my teaching internship shortly after. School from the perspective of an educator is kind of different from that of a student. Lessons have to be prepared, yet students take that for granted (at least I did =D). Feeling all the bad karma coming back to haunt me. Yet, this second part of my holidays benefitted me too.

My new dream: to be a Chinese/English teacher in Germany =D

Before My Immersion Ends

2010-06-03T03:09:00.004+08:00

After our visit to a school in Germany, I admire the Deutsche Kinder life even more. I am liking Germany more and more and dreading my departure more and more, though I know I would really be glad when my plane lands in Changi.

This immersion is more fulfilling than expected. First my German did improve =D, second I got to pretend to be a German over here. Additionally, I made great friends here. So when immersion ends on Friday, I'd really be upset.

Ich liebe Deutschland!

Ich liebe es!

2010-05-26T05:27:00.004+08:00

Life in Germany is getting only more exciting. Everyday is making me dread 21st Jun 2010 more.

While in Munich, we chanced upon Bayern Munich football team's twin triumph celebration. I was never really a fan of soccer, but for the past week in Germany, I became very concerned about soccer. Everywhere people were cheering, singing, shouting (yes, everywhere). Everyone wore Bayern shirt and the celebration was pure moving. Never in my life would I thought I'd be participating in a soccer celebration, get to be so close to soccer stars, and see a real soccer champion trophy (cup) with my own eyes.

Germans have well...pleased me and pissed me. But yes, I remember only those who pleased me.

My First Post in Germany

2010-05-20T04:54:00.005+08:00

After 12 over hours of direct flight and many many hours of train, I'm finally more settled down in Germany (now I hope I really do settle down in Germany one day).

Everything here is beautiful, new and very interesting - funny green man traffic light in Berlin, special bicycle pathway in Münster that follows so much like the ones for car, a post-card like promenade, and everything else you cannot find in Singapore - city or rural. Not much photos at night, because there isn't much night anyway.

Germans are a crazy lot. Drinking beer in the train while making music. Everything is just so... Western (my Reverse-Orientalism).

Communication is a huge problem - when you know a bit of German but don't understand anything. But many funny things happen. So I went to eat MacDonald's, and the guy told me in German, 'have a good meal!' But because I can't really understand the highly accented sounds, I said, 'pardon?' Hahahah

The Amazingly Amazing Race

2010-05-11T01:25:00.004+08:00

I am so glad that Dan and Jordan won. Its so heart-warming to see them race through the whole season, and finally on to the finishing line. Dan is so respectable as an elder brother, who came to the race only to fulfil his little brother's dream of running the amazing race, and they won! How touching it is. (Unlike those who ran the race to prove that they have intelligence when all the more they proved otherwise.)

Exams are over, and I've been so busy planning the Germany trip. I don't know it could be so time-consuming. 选我！选我！Love 威力，大力 and 小西瓜 =D

Its 2010?!

2010-04-29T20:51:00.003+08:00

Schoolwork's been really crazy since the beginning of the year, and it's only now that I could take a break, and it finally dawned upon me its 2010. Circle Line's opened, the Double Helix bridge is opened, Resorts World Sentosa has opened, and now Marina Bay Sands. While I was mugging... =( But the holidays are here! Lots of things to look forward to.

I love social constructions, because it helps you to understand a lot of things taken for granted. And who says psychologists are scheming? They are only good at developing ways to understand phenomenons, and they're great at it. Its not about changing, its about accepting.

March Post

2010-03-26T23:14:00.002+08:00

What would you do if you were in a lift with 3 other people who were all standing with their backs facing the door? Would you follow suit? Or would you insist on facing the door?

How far would you go to portray a positive image of yourself?

I'm gonna miss Social Psychology lectures and German classes. I think Dr.Tsai is very motivating. If she can learn English as a second language and be good at it, it shows one thing - effort. I am even more amazed that my Australian and New Zealand lecturers read articles in Korean for their research - another motivating story.

"Do you think I am mad?"
"I am afraid so. But I'll tell you a secret. All great people are."
- quote from 'Alice in Wonderland'

Heute bin ich nicht glücklich. Eigentlich, für diesem Semester habe ich nicht glücklich, weil ich nicht so gut vorbereitet habe. Ich habe keine viel Zeit im letzten Dezember gehabt, und das macht mir traurig.

German and English

2010-02-25T00:37:00.007+08:00

Today I had my German 2 Semester Test 1. It's really very different from German 1, where memory work won't bring you far, like Frau Ewerhart said, 'not an easy paper for you all'. Every time after German Semester tests, I feel mentally very vey tired, it can be much worse than final exams because, I have to translate every single word, word for word, then think about the meaning before attempting the questions. But German is addictive, because I feel incomplete, and I want to continue on and on.

Since I came into Uni, I've been spamed with readings, and with them are hundreds of 'foreign' English words. Initially I was very lazy, so I guessed the meaning of words based on what they look like, and this Sem after I decided to be hardworking, I realised how much laziness cost me. Let's look at some examples of what I am referring:

1. If 'announce = tell publicly', I assumed 'denounce' to mean 'to tell publicly something is not true', but in fact 'denounce = to criticise'.

2. If 'confirm = made sure', then I assumed 'infirm' to mean 'made very sure'. However, 'infirm' actually = 'to be sick/ill'.

3. If 'comprehensible = able to understand', I assume 'reprehensible' to mean 'to be able to understand again or fully'. But 'reprehensible = morally wrong and deserving criticism'.

I guess using derivation to understand word meanings are not really useful in English, and can be quite inhibitive to English learning. Here's where I think Mandarin has an edge, aber ich habe keine Zeit für diesem Thema diskutiert. Hahaha

Well-Being

2010-02-08T00:08:00.005+08:00

I just finished the first draft of my Population Geography essay. So happy =)

I am happy for more reasons than this. Whilst doing the assignment, I was listening to those songs that I liked while I was studying my 'O' Levels, and they brought back loads of memories. I remember myself studying, indulging in my own entertainment. I was very happy, but I didn't like school. My sister just entered NUS back then, so I always imagined how things would be like when I reach there. So here I am. Through JC and NS, I feel that I have been through a lot, and now I feel that god is finally giving me returns, and I appreciate it totally.

I am really greatful for the people around me. Wednesday I'll be having a Psychology presentation, and one of my group member who saw the slides told me how much she appreciates my effort, and I feel really very happy about it. Now I finally understood what Mr. Lau meant, ‘让别人开心就是让自己开心’。 How I treat other people is really more important than how other people treat me.

Exerpt from 《新生活》 by 迷路兵 - 《团圆饭》主题曲
当生活不太如意你可以尝试深深呼吸一家人都会挺你
当心情开始忧郁你依然要坚持到底决不能就放弃
当一切不太顺利你可以从自己的心里再掏出一份勇气
当幸福拥抱着你决不能错过要珍惜我们的心生活就在这里

ALthough Chinese New Year is quite different for me now, when I go for New Year shopping, that kind of 喜气洋洋 feeling is still prevalent.

P.S. I really can't find a good English substitute for ‘喜气洋洋’. Ich habe viel Hausaufgaben gemacht und ich habe keine Zeit, wirklich! Ich bin sehr müde...schlafen, schlafen, schlafen.

Thinking Critically

2010-01-16T14:32:00.006+08:00

This first week of school was different from the last. Much less confused, much less worried. This said, it's still very busy.

Monday went for Joann's farewell dinner as she leaves for Denmark this coming Monday.

Tuesday spent half a day scuttling around for my new phone.

Wednesday night went for Joel and Daniel's ORD dinner. Feel very happy for them. Joel came in very shy, and Daniel came in being extremely outgoing, but Joel learnt to open up a lot, and Daniel learnt a lot about responsibility. These 2 guys are damn smart. Then I heard that Joel's understudy looks exactly like me, it's very funny the way Neville puts it, 'when I searched facebook, then I saw, "eh, isn't that qihao?"' Hahaha. Hope I will get to meet him soon, never heard of such thing in my life before.

Thurday went dinner with Lizzy and Cheryl.

Friday. GE2206 lecturer is damn good-looking. He's a New Zealander, called Dr. Francis Leo Collins. And guess what, he looks like my all-time favourite 'Always Be My Baby' singer David Cook, and better looking. This is seriously the first time I've had a dashing teacher in my life. But he's very fierce...and he said GE2206 had not been taught for 4 years. I must really appreciate this opportunity then.

A slice of funny happening in school: They changed the boys toilet outside LT9 to a girls toilet, and when I wanted to go in guided by my subconscious, I was so shocked to see a flood of girls queuing outside.

During PL2131, we talked about difference. So why do we want variations? If everything in this world is the same, there's nothing for us to study, because there is nothing interesting to study anymore. There's no better or worse variation, because what something has less is offset by something it has more in other aspects. So let's embrace difference.

New Year, Vietnam Trip and New Semester

2010-01-08T22:20:00.009+08:00

I ushered in the new year being sick, but the rest was timely and fruitful.

Vietnam Trip
Vietnam is a simple place, and definitely relaxing. Yet it is dynamic - weather, people, lifestyle. There's something different in every city. I shan't elaborate my whole trip here but pick out some interesting parts.

1. The highlight to me was Mui Ne, a 5-hour road trip from Ho Chi Minh City. We stayed in a seaside resort @ S$14 per person. And this was our most expensive stay, coupled with the fact that it is peak Christmas-New Year season. Imagine what the price would be during off-peak season. At Mui Ne, there were sand dunes. Yes, those that you find in Arabic countries. It's unbelivable.

2. Road trips are horrendously long, yet essential.

3. Vietnamese coffee is very thick. Though I liked the first few cups, I started missing Singapore coffee in the last few days.

So I fell sick from the travelling and dynamic weather and little sleep, which brings me to today.

《妻子的诱惑》
'Cruel Temptation' is getting very interesting. Shen Aili is really a slut, and Encai is so pitiful, but she's fighting back now, and I will root for her all the way! I want to be like her, very strong and very paitient. And I found my new hairstyle - the one Min Jianyou has.

New Semester and CAC
I am rather prepared for the coming semester, and as before, I am very excited about what I will be reading, and I can't wait to read them.

CAC Sub-Club Retreat was fun personally, though I didn't really participate in the activities, but I think that kind of environment was pro-bonding.

I also finished watching 《我的野蛮奶奶》 before Vietnam and I find the opening song rap about the family very meaningful and to the point:
家和万事兴家衰口不停
你们闹得如此起劲我希望你们可以恕情
停一停安抚我弱小心灵洗耳恭听
既然大家都是属于同一個家庭同一个环境同样有感情
我相信雨后一定会天晴
一家人总可以高高兴兴

又有烟花放了

2009-12-11T13:17:00.014+08:00

Another 40 episodes in 3 days! 阿婆跑得快，一定有古怪。 Hahaha.

《溏心风暴之家好月圆》 was really much more intense than 《溏心风暴》. Certain scenes that I like:

1. When Sa姨 found out that 中仔 was a 半文盲.
2. When 阿卡's boss complained that he changed the office likened a stock market.
3. When Sa姨 was going back to Portugal, then 阿卡 said, 'let's finish eating quickly so Sa姨 will leave earlier'
4. When 阿卡 suggested Jo鲍 and 红姨 to go on a cruise, then throw 红姨 into the sea, then '红姨 no more'. hahaha

It's a bit wasted because this time their play on language is more cheem, and I don't understand some parts. But I think the best was when 荷妈 scolded, '每个人都说红姨变了，是变本加厉！' This was really unexpected, and its thumbs up, thumbs up and thumbs up!

There are 2 tongue-twisters that I want to pick up. The first is 凌B's 朱元璋绕口令：

煲煲猪脚姜呀，激死朱元璋呀；
拎住猪脚姜呀，撞到朱元璋；
放低猪脚姜呀，叫声朱元璋；
叫叫下朱元璋呀，唔见左煲猪脚姜；
拉住朱元璋，问拒拿翻煲猪脚姜。

The second one is Sa姨's 辈分急口令：

堂大过姑,姑大过姨,
姨大过表叔公,
表叔公大过表叔婆,
表叔婆大过表伯,表伯娘,表叔,表婶,表姑妈,表姑姐,表姑丈,表舅公,表舅婆,表姨婆,表舅父,表舅母,表姨妈,表姨丈。

This is a very touching scene from the show. I now know the song is 林子祥's 《分分钟需要你》. The other video is the opening song 《无心害你》

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I hope I can finish both series of 《我的野蛮奶奶》 by this holiday, but it's really thumbs up for both series of 《溏心风暴》 and I shall end with this: ‘不用怕，妈妈在大厅’

胡思乱想

2009-12-07T16:49:00.004+08:00

I finished watching 40 episodes of 《溏心风暴》 in 3 days! It's so intense, so touching and so meaningful. 人生如戏，戏如人生。 Some things people do for you, advise given to you, you will really never forget and be really grateful. Some quotes in the show were really meaningful:

1) 有口是和，没口也是禾，安逸欢欣最重要
2) ‘福’和‘祸’只差一个边，是福是祸只是一线之间
3) 哭有时，笑有时，欢乐有时，悲伤有时

The last sentence of the theme song goes like this：‘我只不过偶尔受了惊，于是才遗忘本性’. Can really good people do evil things? Yes. Psychologically proven.

My favourite Hong Kong actors are 佘诗曼 and 黄宗泽。 I was very captivated when 佘诗曼 acted in 《凤凰四重奏》. She played 4 different characters across 4 different eras with totally different personalities so well, which is really commendable. As for 黄宗泽, I started noticing him when he acted in 《我的野蛮奶奶》, he has a pair of eyes that captures his character so vividly.

Now I am off to watch 《溏心风暴之家好月圆》. Don't know when can I go HK again.

End of Semester

2009-12-02T12:22:00.001+08:00

During the exams, there were so many things I wanted to do, so many things I wanted to say, but when it is finally over...I only want to sleep =D

I like to watch travel shows a lot. On the top of my list is 《世界正美丽》 and now I am watching 《时尚玩家-就要酱玩》. Haha I just feel very happy =D

Sleeping

2009-11-10T01:34:00.004+08:00

Today (actually yesterday) was a very special day. I completed all my coursework! What's ahead is the finals! Also, I am done with my German 1!

Reflecting back, learning German is still the most satisfying thing I've done this semester, followed by Psychology, though my passion is still Geography. But actually, going to University is already very satisfying.

One of the most important lessons I learnt this semester is about having enough sleep. In our fast-paced society, having little sleep often equates to working hard. It seems so natural to think very highly of people who sleep very little a day, which when given some thought is totally absurd! Instead, the exact opposite is true. According to Zimbardo et al. (2009), when we get enough sleep, we work more efficiently, our mind is clearer, and we accomplish more things than accumulating a sleep debt.

So how long is enough? Minimum 6 hours a day. We need to go through 4-5 deep sleep cycles (i.e. you have to dream about 4-5 times), then it is considered adequate (Zimbardo et al., 2009). So now I finally understood why Fraulein Maria sang 'strength lies in nights of peaceful slumbers' in the song 'I Have Confidence' in the musical 'The Sound of Music' (1965).

Okay, ich habe keinen Zeit! Ich brauche jetzt studieren.

F1 Rocks Singapore

2009-10-02T18:37:00.042+08:00

The previous weekend Singapore hosted the second Singtel Formula 1 (TM) Grand Prix. I think it is very amazing that Singapore was able to host the F1, and to be the only night racing in the world. Why do I say so? We built the Supreme Court and Anderson Bridge hundred of years ago, then the Esplande Bridge and The Esplande in the 90s, and recently the Singapore Flyer and Floating Platform, our roads were built according to our needs, and now they all come together so nicely for us to host the Singapore Grand Prix. It's like a bonus to the country, and think of the amount of benefits Singapore gets.

I felt very excited watching the race over the TV, because the places where the karts run through were where I waited for my bus after movie at Marina Square, where I walked from The Esplanade to the Merlion Park, from City Hall to Suntec City, and don't forget we have our Circle Line underneath the tracks. Quoting our senior minister from the Starits Times, 'it would have been different if the race was elsewhere, because these are the places Singaporeans can identify with.' This is our sense of place and place identity - applying the new concept I learnt in the past half a semester.

These are the previews in English und auf Deutsch:

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Learning German is a lot of work, but it is very satisfying. The only drawback is that as my German improves, my English deproves. Ich finde lernen Deutsch spaß, und möchte lernen mehr Fremdsprache - Japanisch, Spanisch, Cantonisch, Koreanisch, Französich und Italienisch.

‘溏心风暴’ has finished its run on TV. Feel so weird now, have been so excited over 9pm for the past few months. Yet I am going to watch it all over again during my holidays, including ‘家好月园’. A quote that strikes me, again in the show, also by 大干 is this: ‘哭有时，笑有时；欢乐有时，悲伤有时’ there's time for everything, so we shouldn't dwell on something too much, but should keep moving on.

Speaking about Hong Kong, I recently watched 'Extreme Engineering' on Discovery Channel about Hong Kong Airport. A seemingly common project was actually a historical breakthrough in engineering considering that it had to build the world's tallest and longest bridge （60 stories high!), massive underwater tunnels and highways across 15 lanes of traffic, and North Lantau Island used to be just rocky mountains! A project estimated to take decades had to be completed in 7 years, and Hong Kong Airport is the single largest enclosed area in the world! I hadn't knew all these!

'Recess' Week

2009-09-19T00:46:00.005+08:00

Finally there's something called 'recess' week. Someone said my blog had stood still since school start, which is true! =) Sehr gut.

The most significant thing that is worth mentioning should be 溏心风暴, like a bit no life haha...so these are the words from 大干：‘一家人相处最重要的是讲一个“诚”字，如果不能坦诚，那么大家心里就会有根刺，那么怎么能开心呢？’, and my lousy attempt to translate, 'we must be honest to each other, if not its likened to having a thorn in our hearts, then how would we be happy?'

I haven't been taking much photos recently, so no photos to post. But next week! 2 geography field work trips, and a cac cohesion outing...photos, photos, photos...and i am craving for dim sum...

High School Musical 4 - College Years

2009-08-21T22:53:00.007+08:00

School's finally started. Lots of helter-skelter (which I don't want to detail), lots of things to learn, lots of decisions to make and lots of adaptations to do, all ranging through an entire scale. But beneath the uncertainty, occassional inner struggle and dissatisfaction, I am happy. I am happy I made it here, I am happy that I have grown out of my narrow mind, and I am happy for the help bestowed on me, those who pulled me through, and thankful for it.

I now believe more firmly that we should stand-by our positive principles, despite the perpetual challenge that it is being put upon by society's attempt to bring it down, time will separate the good from the evil, or as the chinese saying accurately puts it, ‘人在做，天在看’.

It is so exciting to watch ‘溏心风暴’ an episode a day. The suspence that adds up at the end of every episode, combined with the daily trailer that repeats throughout the day is perfect entertainment. Lots of statements to learn, with which we can fight for ourselves when we get bullied! As a tribute, I am going to dye my hair like 黄宗泽 LOL

Sim City 4

2009-08-04T22:07:00.006+08:00

I am so happy to be able to create a city of my desires! For years since I bought the game, I just don't know why my city doesn't grow. Then now that I have a bit of time, I went to do some research, and according to someone on youtube, 'with a bit of dedication, you can play this game real well!' Sim City is really a very tough game. Boring and demoralising when you don't know how to play, but it just sucks your soul into it when you finally understand the game. Then you'll realise its really logical and meaningful.

Besides Sim City, the other thing that made me very happy recently was when Larry told me that someone in Archi shared with him how he was being made use by darrell tham that fucker. After that I felt so happy, because I am more certain now that I wasn't the one who's screwed up, but him! In fact, recalling those horrible times and that horrible person makes me very, very, very angry!

Maj Janny told Zachary this during one of my tuition with him, 'don't remember the bad things people do to you. Know how it hurts and don't do it to others. Remember the nice things people do to you, then you'll start to realise that there are many nice people in this world'

Busy Week

2009-07-27T00:24:00.014+08:00

Had a really busy week. Monday went to watch Harry Potter. I think it could've focussed more on the magical parts. Tuesday went out with Siudor to fly kite at Marina Barrage. Enjoyed it totally except for the tan =< Then went to Mind's Cafe with my JC buddies. Had a great time! Wednesday had work, then tuition. Travelling from Pasir Laba to Tampines is no joke. Thursday went to buy DVD player, tuition, then visit my grandma. Can't go Timbre. Friday (perhaps luckily) night cycling was cancelled, so I got my rest! But still met up with the AFIMC peeps for dinner nevertheless.

Mediacorp Channel 8 showed the drama '心花朵朵开’ last year. This family-centered drama's theme song had the same title, but carried very meaningful lyrics. The chorus goes like this:

心花朵朵开要懂得灌溉 - learn to cultivate the flowers in our hearts
体谅和关怀才会更愉快 - compassion and care brings about happiness
谁被亏待谁被疼爱 - who gets more and who gets less
还不都是虚荣心在作怪 - it's what our vanity brings us to think

心花朵朵开要多点忍耐 - the flowers in our hearts will blossom with tolerance
风风和雨雨一起扛下来 - grit through thick and thin
有种答案叫做看开 - there's a solution, and that is called 'move on'
才会每天都能活得精彩 - and we'll live everyday meaningfully

The English translation wouldn't flow, but the idea for each sentence should be there (I guess). Think about it. Particularly the part that tells us to ‘看开’. It really is the solution to many problems. Since we can't solve it, accept it =)

University

2009-07-17T14:50:00.004+08:00

I am really very happy and excited that school is starting, like after 2 years. Throughout these few years, even now, I met a lot of people who gave me many advices like, 'hey why did you choose arts? there's no future!', 'study business you can do anything and make big bucks', 'take engineering will secure you a good job next time!' etc etc

Everyone wants to make big bucks, have great ambitions. But have it ever crossed your mind that getting into University is itself a blessing? How many people out there want to have a degree but didn't have the chance? My mum and dad are very good examples. We never know what would happen next time, but what I know is to grab every opportunity that comes my way, based on my own inclinations.

My dear friend, malCOLM Koh wrote this on his facebook:
'I don't like to conform to what social norms or people expect of me... It stifles me from being me...'

I find it very meaningful because everyone has their own unique value to this world. Everyone is their best when they follow the directions of their heart. This reinstates my point about what people say about my decision to do arts.

AFIMC Zoo Outing

2009-07-04T22:47:00.022+08:00

I didn't know going to Zoo could be so fun. Ms Calyn's daughter is damn cute =)

Really miss those peeps at afimc =) I've nvr had that much fun in my entire life. Kudos to all!

Thursday's episode of 东方之珠 carried this quote, which I think can help people to overcome their fears. It goes like this:
'你要别人用正常的眼光看你，你就得先用正常的眼光看自己’

Arts Camp!

2009-07-01T21:21:00.008+08:00

Arts Camp was really fun and happening. Met a lot of familiar faces, as well as look-alike faces. My group has one guy who looks like Choon Hong, and one who looks like Nigel. Then my House IC looked totally like Chee Yong duplicate.

My House IC Jun Yue was funny like Chee Yong, crazy like him, and hyper like him, but he is super emo - the exact opposite of Chee Yong. He keeps saying things like we are one family, we must be happy, and cries very easily. But this shows how much he appreciates what he does, and how much effort he puts in. Salute to them because I know how tough it is. Arts Camp was worth it =)

I am so going to join publicity...continue my work in AFIMC =)

Today I will be sharing a quote from '阿旺新传', which is the one 小媳妇 always uses to encourage 阿旺：
‘只要有恒心，梦想可成真’

New Blog Skin

2009-06-23T22:19:00.003+08:00

New skin is finally up. Changing the facade means changing directions. While it will still be short and brief, this blog would move away from being personal, to something more purposeful. As far as possible every post from now on I will include meaningful quotes from movies/tv drama/books or anywhere, which will hopefuly inspire some.

The quote today is from the movie '17 Again':
'When you're young, everything for you seems like the end of the world, but it isn't. It's just the beginning.'

人生如戏，戏如人生

2009-06-22T00:18:00.004+08:00

After finish watching Friday's '东方之珠', I felt so pissed off by 阿威. How could he betray 凌丰 like this?! Rar. But well, this happens in real life right? Not going to mention who, but I can only say this - 人生如戏，戏如人生.

Saturday I attended 2 birthday celebrations, for my 2 very very good friends, who had also been significant in my lives. In the end I have to leave early for one and attend late for the other, but both are very important to me =)

Xue Ting's birthday party was very heart-warming because it's a house party. I know around half of the people - all through her. Got to know a few new people, very nice people. Only minus point is, why is it every time I go for house visit in Bt Panjang/Choa Chu Kang area, it will DEFINITELY rain?! - even during this hot summer season!!!

Jia Qun's birthday was held in a private suite in a hotel. At first I was very shy because I hardly know anyone there, but her colleagues were super friendly people, they brought me in to play Wii with them, and woo, we became good friends =)

Jia Qun and Avril were the ones who brought me out of my shell when I was still shy and introverted. Xue Ting was the one who supported me while I was facing the troubles of teenage life - I really could feel the significance of the celebrations =)

And as usual, I have a few quotes:
1. 得饶人处且饶人
2. People must have dreams, if not life would be meaningless

Pieces of Wisdom

2009-06-19T02:29:00.002+08:00

I guess something is really worth it only when you been through a tough time achieving it.

I came across these few quotes recently:
1. We are enrolled in a full-time school called life. Its lessons are presented to us everyday in one way or another, until we really learn it.
2. What if we realise that, the judgement that other people have on me is more about them than about me?

I would like to elaborate on the second one, because only recently then I realise. Take for instance, if someone has something against you, who is at fault? It would be him isn't it? Had you done anything that is morally wrong? No! If someone had been mean to you, who's at fault? It would be him again right? Because you did nothing at all. And this brings me to the understanding that, do not let other people steal away your happiness.

柳暗花明又一春，把过去的事全部抛得远远的，其实前面还有很长的路要走。

There is no ugly people in the world, because he/she who smiles is the prettiest/most handsome one. And the difference between handsome and suave/pretty and beautiful - is what's inside.

Back to life! Recently there is this HK drama 东方之珠 is super funny. And I am looking forward to year-end Cambodia, Vietnam, Laos and perhaps Hong Kong trip =) I may not have a lot of friends, but I know all of them are true ones.

Sometimes I get very angry when I recalled the whole thing. I hate him totally because not only did he harm me, he also affected my family, and put us through a tough time. What to do? I am not as crafty and eloquent as he is. BOO!!!

Hong Kong Trip

2009-05-23T11:22:00.002+08:00

Well I guess I prefer Taiwan to Hong Kong. The people there seem to be always in a rush, and the city is so cluttered...it's more like a stressful holiday. Nevertheless, going to Hong Kong after watching so many years of HK drama is still worth it. I can understand and appreciate Hong Kong dramas better now.

Camp Visit

2009-05-06T23:07:00.003+08:00

I really like this job. It's really something that normal people don't get the chance to do, and something that I enjoy, something that is Qihao. The new friends I made are really wonderful =) Minghao, Jason/Jie Sheng, Lai Guang, Royce, and a few others whom I cant remember their names.

Today's visit was for sajc. My dream sch =). I would be lying if i told you i wasn't upset or envious of the kids, but duh i how old already? lol, though I am certain I would probably be quite a different person if i had went to sajc. =)

But from a tour guide's perspective, I like interacting with the school kids =)

The teacher attached to me today was my sis' ex-pe teacher. Mr Lau is now teaching at HCI - saw him today! Jack Hu is now 2LT Jack at tekong, and lincoln is also in tekong! =)

My conclusion for today: Look, the world is so big outside, there are so many people out there who appreciates you more than that fucker =)

爱就宅一起

2009-05-04T23:36:00.000+08:00

Have been watching 爱就宅一起. Feel so empathetic for Momo.

Decision

2009-04-26T23:37:00.003+08:00

I've decided to minor in psychology and take Japanese.

Psychology over sociology because I feel psychology is more on a personal level. Minor over major because I don't think a second major can psychology can get me anywhere VERY far. Japanese over German becuase I do not really think I will get to Europe so often, and we're exposed more to Japan over here.

Some Planning

2009-04-23T21:28:00.003+08:00

I have this dream of going all over the world to take photographs =) well and I hope I can do it with NUS =)

Yesterday watched 17 Again, felt very happy after watching. I felt really happy recently haha...after I eliminated that friend who's always trying his best to put me down.

A little upsetting thing that happened - after that idiot's episode is over, another idiot came bugging at me again...

Inside Out

2009-04-21T13:40:00.002+08:00

自信是从里面拿出来的。
快乐是从里面散发出来的。

Avril's 21st

2009-04-12T23:31:00.002+08:00

Went for Avril's 21st birthday. Felt very happy watching her enjoyig her celebration. She and jq had been really nice to me last time, they were the ones who opened me up. Cheers to our friendship!

End of a 5-year Pursuit

2009-04-02T18:40:00.002+08:00

On April Fool's Day, I officially end a 5 year pursuit. It isn't the outcome that's important, it's the knowledge that was acquired, and the subsequent attitude and take on the issue.

To anyone that needs help, always remember this, 人最重要的就是要让自己快乐。

When I started this blog, I made it a point not to mention names, so it will be the same this time. But we shall make today an exception =)

I am going to share about what selfish people say about selfessness. He wants me to burn CD for him, send him songs, go out with him, accompany him for lunch, get goodies for him, listen to him being upset about the 3 girls which he likes in one year (apparently all didn't succeed). Take note that he will open his mouth to ask me for all these, and would call me if I didn't reply his message.

Then this fateful day Qihao needed his company. Oops, he wasn't free. Then Qihao needed him to return money, Qihao got scolded by him, reason being that he wasn't in the position. Qihao was angry, and guess what? He turned Jesus and said, 'you help people is out of goodwill. If helping people means tht person must return something back, then it isn't call help. Is so, don't help me next time.'

Let's analyse this statement. It is true that when we help others, we can't expect things in return. However, this does not apply to people who open their mouth to ask for help, especially when they are not the needy. My other point is, that someone is not willing to help you when you needed help.

3 months later, I was given this statement by that same someone, 'Qihao, actually I don't feel comfortable going out with you, because you always expect people to do things for you in return.'

The person is from Fairfield Methodist Sec, class of 2004. Went to PJ in 05/06. Took Maths, Physics and Chem, and joined volleyball. He served his NS in MINDEF in a branch that's in charge of the posting of officers, above all. He lives in Redhill, going to NTU Business. Think this description is enough =)

Happy

2009-03-30T00:10:00.001+08:00

Friday went out with my ns friends. Felt very happy because there were a lot of people who cares about me. =)

Taiwan Trip

2009-03-12T22:22:00.002+08:00

Taipei was great. Cold weather, friendly faces.

Food wasn't really fantastic, but eating chicken cutlet in cold weather is definitely fantastic.

The people there are really good-looking and very fashionable, suppose its due to their weather.

TV shows were superb. There were at least a few choices at any single timeslot. I coulddn't finish watching all of them.

I didn't felt like I was overseas, because when I was in their subway, its all Chinese people speaking Mandarin, which is so like Singapore MRT. The best thing is that there are no language barriers.

7-Eleven stores were crazy! So many different kinds of coffee for me to choose from, on top of the many funny items they have. Actually not just 7-Eleven, generally their 'bian li dian' have a lot of interesting food items.

Ma La Huo Guo aka Spicy Steamboat is better than the best one you can find in Singapore. Service standard was beyond words. PERFECT!

Not forgetting the scenery.

Would definitely want to go back a second time, third time, perhaps every year when I have the money.

Revolution

2009-02-22T17:54:00.001+08:00

I hate my relatives, and this is it!

As for the shit they put me in, I will get out of it MYSELF!

=D

2009-01-12T21:50:00.002+08:00

Today had been a happy day!

Morning received an award.
Then I met Mdm Cindy. Then I thought of how fierce she was to us when we first came in, until now like friend.
And later part of the day I finally am able to manage my understudy well.

2009

2009-01-10T22:06:00.002+08:00

Woots! It's finally the new year. And I started this new year perfectly by removing a pain in my ass. Great!

What Goes Around Comes Around

2008-12-23T18:46:00.003+08:00

Sunday had a monopoly session with my new colleagues...well I suppose I found another AFIMC gang...lol

Some Quotes

2008-12-08T15:31:00.002+08:00

Was listening to 'Bring It All Back' by S Club 7 (hehs...mind me for the oldness of this song), and got some nice quotes:

1. Don't you know its true what they say, that life it ain't easy
2. Don't you know its true what they say, things are sent to try you
3. DOn't you know its true what they say, things happen for a reason

Leave

2008-12-04T20:21:00.003+08:00

Went to visit the Singapore City Gallery today - something that made me really happy.

Felt really upset for the past week. I wonder what all my insistences were for. Only serve to strengthen the point that life is a matter of focusing on your own goals, not looking at what others are doing and where they are. And yeps, life is short.

Hmms...I should be happy that I found myself a brother.

My 20th Birthday

2008-11-19T21:57:00.002+08:00

Definitely my best celebration ever (with friends esp).

Went Boon Tiong Kee for lunch on my birth day with office people, then went to Chin Huat for dinner with my family. The next day went to Long Beach for seafood dinner. Really feel vry bad tt the guys have to pay so much for e meal.

I am vry vry vry happy. One being the celebration itself, but more importantly, the love that was showered upon me.

Life is a marathon, and not a 100m sprint.

Update

2008-11-11T21:10:00.002+08:00

On the 3rd day of November, I got my driving license. Mind me for being boastful that I did it in the rain. Got 12 demerit points, 4 for parallel parking correction, 8 for failimg to take precaution against pedestrian, which I had thought I was given immediate failure. Have to admit I was very lucky to have got a good tester.

Nothing much really happened after this, except for the prospect of my birthday. I am so goin to make it good this year, for I have missed my 16th, 18th, and would probably miss my 21st birthday due to exams.

Today went out for lunch with Darrell, for a while felt how lucky I was. Then after that went to see Mdm Janny. Felt so happy.

Also today, was my last guitar lesson. One more thing down.

Today I received 3 calls wishing me happy birthday. Though they all made a mistake, but still I am thankful.

Thinking of it, I find that I already got what I wanted. People ask me what birthday present I wanted, seriously I don't know though I have a lot of things I wanted. And to me, asking that question itself is already the greatest gift.

Back to School

2008-10-21T21:04:00.003+08:00

Today was doing despatch, and with that I got a bonus trip to NYJC.

When I went in, everything felt so familiar. That sense of freedom suddenly surged within me. And I was able to catch up with Mr Haniss, who was having consultation - the same thing he did with me exactly 2 years ago. Thinking back, how fast it was, another batch of students are taking their A Levels already...

Duh I've got to move on in life man.

2 Days Off

2008-10-10T21:23:00.003+08:00

Lol!!! I got 2 days off out of the blue.

The first was because I was too grumpy. While complaining about my off, my officer suddenly came over to me and say, 'hey enough! I give you one day off ok?!' So this is how I earned my first off.

Then I got another one because I got an award. And the most shocking thing is that Mdm Carol actually congratulated me. And I am really delighted that she said she had learnt a lot from me.

Anyway I feel really blessed to be where I am now.

Another Person Who've Touched My Life

2008-10-02T21:55:00.002+08:00

I felt very touched yesterday. I think I found myself a second mum. I'd be glad to tell people that in my NS life, I've met officers that really touched my heart, and influenced my life.

I Live My Life

2008-09-21T00:35:00.002+08:00

Wed was a very happy night. Though I ended up sleeping for days, but after tt night, I suddenly woke up. I woke up from my thoughts. I realise things are not that complex as what I had thought.

Today I was very happy, and a bit sad. But happy because I realise things aren't as bad as I had thought.

Also, the thought of the BIG AFIMC gathering next Thu is making me feel oh so excited. I have never really felt this excited over a gathering before to the extent that I became the main organiser. I really love my office a lot, and I am glad to know that my office peeps are all vry excited over this outing too!

Yet the things that pisses me off:

A: I didn't know i felt so much for them. When I heard that people have been talking bad about them, I felt so angsty. I felt angry from the bottom of my heart. And as Ivan said, how can he say such things! It's our most respected person in office!

B: I seriously hate it when people are rude to me. I know I am weak. I am only a human definitely I am weak in many areas. It's okay to scold me, but there's only a thin line between scolding and being rude.

Yeps...that's all for the past few days. Anyway KPE is opened. Can't wait to try on it. That's for living in Sengkang.

Emo Talk

2008-09-14T21:29:00.002+08:00

Wells, am vry upset by 2 main things.

Thing A - once in a while if reminded, I willthink a bit, but stil feel vry disappointed.

Thing B - feel very helpless about it. I'll only have to slowly get over it.

Qihao, jia you!

Saturday

2008-09-07T13:33:00.002+08:00

Yesterday I felt very happy. Went out with my JC friends again. Went to eat the super nice salmon, and of course...all our usual stuffs

Me

2008-09-03T22:41:00.001+08:00

I always complain that people are not nice to me, but what about me? Have I been nice to people? Have I done enough to deserve to be nice to?

Another Long Post

2008-09-02T21:27:00.002+08:00

Haven't really talked about the open house. It was really fun and enjoyable for me, though work was boring. But it definitely was an experience. However, I feel damn shag after the whole thing, had a really activity-packed weekend.

Then back to the my problem. I realise I have everything, but something seemed to be missing still. What is it I really don't know. I think I need assurance and confidence. Sometimes things seemed perfectly alright, then suddenly it seemed things aren't that blissful afterall. The fact that people don't mean what they say and don't say what they mean is really bemusing. Communication is really very important.

Open House

2008-08-28T21:23:00.002+08:00

It was a super fun day and memorable i guess.

Morning it just rained and rained, so nobody to entertain. Then we went to control room to sleep for an hour, then went to take the aircraft.

Can you imagine, aircraft ride for free! Haha...to experience tt take off and landing gestures u'll normally have to pay up a few hundred bucks. Then after take off, I immediately saw my house...which cost $17 by cab...Then a few minutes later, we're already above Jurong Island...

After that we ate lunch, bought ice cream, and then go walk walk see see. It's a good day!

An Emo Post

2008-08-25T21:12:00.002+08:00

Today the first 6 books were delivered. When I saw them, i suddenly feel damn emo...

When I saw the book, i recalled the time when i first came in, flipped through all the archives, tagged out everything. Back then only 3 person was at the project. Then i recalled of the many POs that came in and out to help us on the project, and the many times we felt so desperate, so helpless. And when we thought things were finally over, comments start to come in. Till finally, left the 3 of us again, doing the distribution list. Suddenly so quiet, but so happy.

I am really glad I was part of it :)

Then to the other problem. I also felt very helpless. Its like I know this I know that, but I just cant help it! Its too late already...

K Box

2008-08-23T19:56:00.003+08:00

Today's k-boxing was the best ever.

At first it was rather normal, until a technical glitch changes everything.

Firstly because that the system hanged, they changed us to a super big room. That kind of party room. Then extended our session by half a hour. So because the room was so big, we had to stand up and sing. Then that was when the high part begins. Soon after that, I lowered the key by 2, then i realised, I could all the songs with ease. So this was one of the times I really sang to my hearts content...hahahaha

My Dream Came True!

2008-08-21T21:32:00.003+08:00

Today's driving lesson was the nicest ever. No one really nagging beside me, he let me drove on my own. So I went from Bt Batok, then to Jurong East, then Clementi, up to Upper Bukit Timah Road, Gombak, Choa Chu Kang, then back to Bt Batok again. I was oh so happy, because I had always wanted to know how does it feels like to actually drive to work, and today, in a way, my dream came true! Hahaha.

Ivan was as usual, randomly funny. This morning while sifting out the media reports, we saw an article that says, 'bus 187 on fire'. And all that was left was dark, burnt steel, no roof, no chairs or anything. Then Ivan and I became very paranoid, and we said, 'i think we shouldn't take 187 today after work. It will catch fire!!!' Hahaha.

Though, I am really touched, and very thankful for the support he had given me this period of time. I am really very upset. Just a quote from Loke's blog, 'I guess no matter how selfless human beings try to be, they still end up wanting something in return.'

Happy

2008-08-16T22:16:00.002+08:00

Yesterday Singapore ended its 48 years quest for an Olympic medal. As I watched the table tennis match, intense emotions went through me. In fact, it got so exciting that I couldn't endure through the full match, trying to distract myself away with the driving book. When we finally won, immense bouts of elation surged through me, because we waited 48 years (that's almost half a century) for it!

And it further proves one point - Never give up. Keep trying.

Today driving was damn fun. The instructor was damn humorous. When I stalled my engine at the junction, he said, 'see, look at girl lah.' Then he was damn random and distracting. As I was driving along, he suddenly point to one girl and say, 'eh this one not bad'...lol i am driving!

Updates

2008-08-14T22:55:00.001+08:00

Recently office have been quite fun, plus a whole lot of randomness...all in a week!

Today saw Mr Alvin at the canteen. So happy to see him :)

Driving

2008-08-05T21:37:00.002+08:00

Yeah! I passed my Final Theory Test. This time it went much smoother than BTT, because I know what to expect.

Exploration Trip to Lim Chu Kang

2008-08-02T22:40:00.002+08:00

Today after driving decided to lobo for a longer while. So I decided to take 975 all the way to Lim Chu Kang Road End.

It was rather smelly place, a bit like Punggol end, just that the jetty was much more dangerous. But I didn't know such places exist in Singapore. Took a few photos.

Then went to take 172 to Boon Lay and from Boon Lay take train to Tampines. At Boon Lay the woman on my right was farting. Nevermind, at Jurong East this freaking fat ass sat on my left, and he stinks! OMG! But I am taking to Tampines! I cant afford to give up my seat, so I practically covered my nose for the whole trip. It was not until Aljunied when that fat ass alighted then things got better. Irritating. Was supposed to enjoy a super good sleep on the train.

Then went to take 27 home, reached home at 6 something...

About the Thailand Trip

2008-07-29T21:20:00.002+08:00

I really do not know how to talk about my Thailand trip. But here are some points:
1. it was an eye-opener
2. it felt like time have stopped since we departed. all my problems seem to have been pushed away
3. shopping was freaking rewarding. retail therapy was at its best
4. food was super nice
5. the roads were exciting
6. females can really shop
7. plane ride and hotel stay are still the best part of a holiday
8. massage wasn't that relaxing though

Will add more when I think of them. But it was certainly memorable.

Now back to my normal pathetic routine...7 more months! Grit on!

Qihao loves his friends :)

Bangkok Trip! (25-28 Jul 2008)

2008-07-28T22:13:00.005+08:00

A very brief post about my bangkok trip.

It was freaking fun, mixing with different people, laughing together, enjoying together.

It will be one of my 'happiest moments of 2008'

Woohoo

2008-07-25T09:13:00.002+08:00

I am going Bangkok! Haha. So exciting!

Long-awaited holiday. But I must say it would be better after the project is over, but by then it would be too late. So as I always say, enjoy as and when you can.

I think I need to bring myself to the next level...

Problem

2008-07-19T18:00:00.003+08:00

The problem with me is that I am always very paranoid and wary of others. But reflecting on the past, can't blame myself too much either. It is just fate.

Yet, being very wary of others have saved me from a lot of troubles :)

For both the problems, I will make the effort to ensure its the last time

Commencement 2008

2008-07-14T21:39:00.002+08:00

Today went for my sis commencement. Quite nice...i guess i will be damn happy when it's my turn, but still, there are many things ahead before that day eventually comes.

Then we went to eat Kublai Khan Mongolian buffet. It was quite nice. Very worth the money. Though not everything is nice, but generally satisfied. Woots...had a very good day :P

Philosophy

2008-07-13T23:24:00.003+08:00

The greatest thing that I've learnt in life is: 'You must know what you want, but you cannot expect it to happen. Put in enough effort and your dream will come true when the time is right'

Perhaps its just my destiny.

Anyways, I will forget but its very difficult for me to forgive

Upset

2008-07-12T17:41:00.003+08:00

I still feel sad about it. When I am reminded of it, I feel its so fake. Why am I so stupid?

Getai

2008-07-08T21:02:00.003+08:00

Today there was getai performance opposite my guitar school. Yes, at Sengkang! So I made it a point to watch the performance, for one, the opportunity was rare in Sengkang, and also to relish my good old childhood times.

I remember my dad used to bring me to watch the getai that's a few blocks away from our house back at Ang Mo Kio. Today though I was the only youngster there, I felt very happy, just as the way I would have felt when I was a kid. Well, life's no longer the same anymore.

One thing about the night cycling trip...it was a very very nice feeling when the plane that just took off flew directly above you.

I think when the 40th book is launched, I will be freaking happy :)

Crabs

2008-07-05T21:10:00.003+08:00

Yesterday, as promised by Ashwin, we went to eat crabs!!! We went to Master Crab @ Ghim Moh...we had the usual chilli crab, and the not-so-nice salted egg crab, and the exceeding expectation HONEY CRAB!!!

Rars...i feel so confused...personal satisfaction vs societal expectation. But I know its just too bad. Life isn't perfect, ain't it?

Had a really hectic week, but i feel like goin back to finish up the book! It so motivating!

Realise I never upload photos up on blog since ages ago. I wna show the CRAB!!!

And I love Mathematics and Economics! Haha.

Office is nice

2008-06-30T21:18:00.002+08:00

My office is nice. With a lot of people that cares about me. When there's trouble, we all suffer together...well i don't mean all, but just tt few is enough.

I am really touched today, though this i not the first time already. I am certain this is somewhere i will miss when i leave, and somewhere important to me.

And after the weekends, sorted things out, feel much better with him already.

Lessons Learnt

2008-06-29T22:30:00.002+08:00

I really don't like to quarrel. It's so tough and tiring. Its worse than studying for A levels. Yet sometimes I am overwhelmed by how I feel. But taking it positively, it would be better than keeping it all to myself and create unnecessary nonsense.

I realise sometimes no one is wrong, and no one is right. Its just personality clash. All we have to do is to tolerate and accept, and very importantly communicate.

And sometimes we don't say what we mean, and we don't mean what we say. So it is very easy to misunderstand.

Night Cycling

2008-06-28T16:56:00.002+08:00

My virgin experience...was superb, except for the pain in my butt! HAHA!

Rars...office damn happening nowadays, thanks to our 2 uni students. :P
But i know its going to be over soon. Another thing for me to be sad about.

Because I care

Lord, Please Stop It

2008-06-24T22:15:00.002+08:00

I guess humans are just like that.

I am sick and tired of it. Lord, please stop. Perhaps it wasn't even right in the first place. I am letting it go, letting it go.

Haha...ivan laughed at me...he actually commented with a laugh, 'you're really in a lot of shit'. Personally I feel just 'come whatever', but i think its time to really define a limit. But as what yy said, 'after the tour here, you'll be able to handle the stress in the outside world. They r nothing compared to here' For this I shall continue to work hard.

A Long Post for a short n brief Blog

2008-06-21T18:03:00.003+08:00

This week, while office is one-person short, I finally feel that I am doing productive and significant work. The excitement came when the main bulk of the project was completed. All my efforts have been credited, and I feel happy that at least I've made a significant contribution whilst my stay here. Though I seriously think that my efforts pale in respect to what my superiors have done.

I want to say that my office really rock. There are things unique to our office and I am so proud of them, and of course there are certain things that are too unique for me to be proud of.

Then to the next topic...I feel sad when my friends tell me about his activities with his other friends because it makes me feel less regarded.

Some pieces of wisdom from a friend:
1. the thing about going out is about being happy. If it doesn't make you feel happy, might as well stay at home.
2. 人不可以太闲，we'll tend to think too much.
3. qihao is someone who is easily moved (positively speaking); or as darrell says, sensitive (negatively speaking).
4. hence qihao treat people who treats him well 10 times nicer, and people who treats him badly 10 times worse.

Dedication

2008-06-16T22:19:00.002+08:00

Recently i am really very stressed. Wld say work is giving me quite a bit of stress. Then stupid me go sign up for guitar and driving lesson.

But today was writing a card, to a very important person in my life. Whilst writing, i can't help but feel really really very touched, for all the support that was given to me all these years, especially beginning of the year.

Weekend

2008-06-15T23:00:00.002+08:00

It had been a very busy weekend...

Fri went out with BK to PC show. Went to his house first. Realise I am getting more familiar with redhill nowadays thanks to the two of them. Then went to meet Loke and Kevin for movie. Watched Kungfu Panda...my first late night movie...and I slept!!! The chair was damn comfortable to sleep so i didn't have a choice...really enjoyed the outing...Loke is becoming my very good friend.

Sat normal routine in e morning, then went KTV at night. Almost followed by supper.

Sun went to meet Malcolm, pass him mac, bought a bag, then went home. Went for a bit of cycling and then cut my hair, then went to my grandma's house.

Heartwarming

2008-06-10T21:42:00.002+08:00

I feel very touched by the motivation talk this morning...cum trashing things out session?

heh hehs

Bleh

2008-06-09T23:14:00.002+08:00

Its like I don't know what is going on. I feel pretty sad some of the times, yet I think about what Y-von told me.

Its something really difficult, don't really interest me, but yet I know I cant do without it.

Lots to Rejoice, Lots to Brood

2008-06-08T13:16:00.003+08:00

First, I passed Basic. Next I am picking up guitar. Also I am happy I found good friends.

Yet, its tiring...

Bowling

2008-05-31T00:18:00.004+08:00

Well I didn't know that i have a talent for bowling...hahas...so bhb. but it was fun lah!

Ytd happened to talk to Kevin, n he's rly a nice guy :P

And driving!!!

I must 看破! Slowly learning to. No hurries though.

Shopping and Driving

2008-05-25T17:03:00.002+08:00

Ytd was so darn happy. Went vivo with y-von and luoh ying. Damn fun, and i happily spent a lot. A bit regret what i bought the other time round anyway cos of the cutting.

So now i m short of black berms, polo, dri-fit, shoes, bag(s) and some accessories.

Then today damn pissed because of that stupid lady, who make me feel so noob, and cheated my money. Some kind of service attitude. Gna trasfer to bukit batok.

Reflections

2008-05-17T19:01:00.004+08:00

When i grow up, i am going to move to the west. East is so boring.

I really regret that last time i was so boring. But i know i just have to look forward. Of course i am trying very very hard to minimise the remorseful feelings i have.

And on top of that, project english enhancement should start already.

Happy

2008-05-04T11:54:00.003+08:00

I m happy, yet not so happy. Wadeva...hahas

As i grow older, i'm easily moved by very simple things. That's for one very obvious reason, for life is complicated.

I can't help but agree there's a difference between the east and the west. But wadeva lah

I know i shouldn't be saying this again, but i still regret goin to nyjc.

Deep

2008-05-01T21:15:00.002+08:00

I bought 4 shirts today!

3-4 more to go, n a whole lot of other miscellaneous stuffs.

And I need some assurance.

No Topic

2008-04-26T17:54:00.002+08:00

I guess it all boils down to those same old things.

Whatever lah

There's no place like home

2008-04-16T21:52:00.001+08:00

I love home.

Let's discuss about the east side vs west side debate that xt brought about. I'd say...true, there's a difference, because i don't know why, my good friends seem to live in the west. Hahas.

Well i would say some things are just difficult to change.

Don't Care

2008-04-12T14:55:00.002+08:00

Nowadays my attitude is getting more and more heck care. Well its good, because i don't have to brood over so many things anymore. Perhaps its credited to the realisation that life isn't fair, and that things aren't perfect. But still will feel quite bad. Hahas.

Disoriented

2008-04-09T20:44:00.002+08:00

If you ask me what's the problem, I don't know. The problem lies with me.

The more i think about it, the more lost i am.

Sometimes i really wonder what will happen if i can turn back in time, and rectify my mistakes. Well I know its impossible, and in fact impractical, because if i never fall, i'll never learn. It's getting hard for me not to believe in fate and destiny.

Anyways, going for guitar lesson real soon.

Photoshop

2008-04-07T21:09:00.003+08:00

Somehow, i got a chance to learn photoshop - for free! Though it means more work for me, but if i wna breakaway, i think this is a good chance :P

Still, when i think about the past few months, i still feel very sad.

Friends

2008-04-05T20:12:00.001+08:00

Let's talk about friends.

I like to meet new people, make friends. It's all so interesting :)

Leave and Change

2008-04-03T21:20:00.002+08:00

First my favourite seniors are gone in one day

Then now, my 2 favourite officers are going too, all so suddenly.

Barely a while ago i was so glad with everything, but everything ended so quickly.